tonight.

tonight i'm at work. and the only place i really want to be is in my bed, with my sister beside me.

remembering...silly fights, dances, boys, and millions of random things. laughing till our sides hurt. talking till one of us falls asleep mid sentence and the other dozes off listening.
why do people have to grow up and move away? why can't we stay young forever?
i know i won't feel this way forever. things will work themselves out. and i'll probably be fine tomorrow.

but right now, a sister sleepover would make everything better....

school...the necessary evil. :)

So, I'll admit it--I've been a bad blogger. I haven't had the chance to post anything new and a couple friends finally got after me for it. Thanks guys... :)
Truthfully there's not much that's new in my life. I'm content with where I am and what I'm doing. I've never minded working. In fact, I've worked a lot more than I've gone to school. And now that I'm at an age where I could've been graduated already, it frustrates me that I'm not. I'm mad at myself for not sticking with it. The bad thing is that the longer I'm out of the college scene, the harder it is to go back. It doesn't help that recently I've been confused about what I want to major in. What do I want to be when I grow up? I honestly don't know right now. But even though I'm not sure about my career like I once was, there are options...which is what makes it such a hard decision. I need to be prepared for the future, which is why I know I have to continue my education. "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail." So although I don't particularly like school, I will be registering for classes in a couple weeks.

*deep breath*

SO....I will push myself this semester. I will work hard and keep up with my homework. I will have a positive attitude about it. And I will feel the satisfaction of knowing that I did my best and am one step closer to being done. :)

One step enough for me.

I'm not sure where to begin... life has been crazy! lots of choices, challenges, and changes recently. but it's good. :) Sometimes I am so anxious to know what will happen, but then I remember something that I heard that has helped me immensely.
About a month ago I was struggling with a decision. I knew what I should do but needed the courage to do it. Doubts flooded my mind as I thought of what would happen if I did what I felt was right. The future seemed so unclear. Then in singing the hymn "Lead Kindly Light" in a sacrament meeting the words spoke to me like they never had before.
"Lead kindly light amid encircling gloom, Lead thou me on.
The night is dark and I am far from home, Lead thou me on.
Keep thou my feet, I do not ask to see
The distant scene, one step enough for me."

Those words were so comforting. I can't see the big picture. I don't know the how, or why, or where of what will happen...but I don't need to. It's enough for me to see one step at a time. :)